Catch Up time.

Wow, It's been so long since I've posted things have been Super busy at work and at home.

Well steve and I did another FET in october but it didn't Stick. so I waited out another cycle and we have decied to go ahed and Do another FET this month. I started my Meds and I'm going for an ultrasound on Monday to see how things are progressing and I think my transfer will be on Sunday Dec 13, I can't wait. I'm excited and scared about it this time. We are planning on transffering 2 back. I'm so terrifed that it's going to happen like the first time. I just can't Seem to get rid of this Fear.

The Waiting Game

Well Steve and I went for a FET ( transfer on Monday October 19) So I'm now in my 2 week wait. I will get to go for a beta test on Wed next week. and I can't wait.

I'm very terrifed this time around I'm so scared that it's going to turn out like my last pregnancy and leave me early. I pray and hope that God will bless me with one child that's all I want. I don't want anything else in my life.

I'm trying my best to keep my self positive about this whole thing. I really Hope that it's good enough. I'm trying to take it easy as much as I can. I'm trying not to over do thing or over analyzie things as well.

so I guess 1 more week untill I find out.. I think I might by a test and test for the sake of it.

Wow' It's been a long time

I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted here.

Well Things have been pretty Crappy these past few months. Steve and I went for a our first ultrasound which turned into a disaster. We ended up losing our presious baby at 8 weeks. my little Angel.

Ever since then I have been feeling like why me. Why did everything I wanted so bad in my life get taken away from me.

Well I still feel crappy some days when I see how close my MIL is with my Nephew and I feel like that's never going to happen to me. I feel so Robe of everything. I really hope that the next cycle we do will bring me my baby.

1 week untill our First Ultrasound

Well I can't believe there is only 1 week untill our first ultrasound. It's Amazing.

I can't believe that tomorrow i will 5 weeks already. I'm starting to feel more bloated and Tired so I'm hoping that is a good sign.

I'm Still In shock That I'm actully Pregnant.

I'm still taking home Pregnancy Test daily just to keep my mind at ease.

Monday July 6th what a day.

Well I know I should of posted yesterday but we don't have internet at home.

Well I went in for my blood work yesterday morning and They called me back yesterday afternoon with a positive blood test. I was so excited. but I'm a little scared still cause I'm still bleeding as if I were to have Af. so I'm hoping that it all goes away.

My beta number was 68. and I'm only really 3 weeks and 7days so it's still a little early.

I'm still in shock and suprised. Steve Still can't believe it either we don't think that it has hit us yet. but I guess After tomorrow's Blood work it will hit us.

It's so hard not to tell anyone. Except for a couple of people. We haven't told our parents yet so were trying to figure out a way to tell the. Steve and I are trying to be creative about it.

well I better get some work done.

Transfer day.

Well today was my transfer. I was so scared and nervous but all went well. I had a little bit of Pain with the wonderful speculam. ( I bet a man invented that Stupid thing ) cause they have never had to go through. LOL :)

So Steve and I transfered 2 and the Dr and lab tech were asking me over and over again they looked at me with much shock. They just don't want me to be in a hig risk Pregnancy. But I put 2 in anyways cause we have made it this far. We can't wait to find out if we hear 2 heart beats or 1. I will be happy with 1 or 2 or more. what ever God blesses us with we will be excited.

I'm feeling pretty good tonight. I'm still having some cramps from retrival on tuesday and the Dr and nurse told me that it was cause they got so many Eggs. Tomorrow I will find out how many we are going to freeze.

So all and all my first Beat will be on July 6, 2009 I can't wait. It's only 1 week away.

:) I have so many people to Thank for all there support and especially to my inlaws who have helped us pack up our house this weekend for our move in 12 days and my parents who have given us so much support through all of this as well. :)))

Fert report #3 and no transfer

Well we still have 15 embies growing which is really amazing.

we went down to the clinic today cause they make you go in on your day 3 just to see if your ready for the transfer. So my Dr was there and we just talked about how many embies we want to transfer and how many we want to Freeze. So Steve and I aren't sure how many we want to transfer we can transfer 2 but there is a risk of multiples and a pregnancy of twims or more is conisdered high risk and My Dr doesn't want to put me in that kind of stress. I would love twins so will see what happens.

So will see what happens on Sunday. I will find out tomorrow what time I will have to go on sunday for my transfer and then I will take it easy for the rest of the day. but on monday i have to go back to work cause were are short staffed and I'm not really looking forward to it.

so untill Sunday I will be helping to pack our stuff since we only have 14 days left in the house.

So That's whats going on for today.